red wine, mistakes, apologies

Sometimes I feel like I’m in the cinema. I just watch people love, argue, break up, reunite, laugh, cry, hug, kiss. I just watch it, like it’s a movie. And all during the performance I’m alone. I’m alone and I don’t feel anything. Sometimes I regret it, but I cannot do anything about it. All which is left to me is to accept my loneliness. I feel like it’ll last forever. Hope someday I’ll be the actor in the show.

There was a girl named Annie
She had a very pretty face
And not the way you would think so
Let me see if I can try to explain it
She had a smile that could light up a room
And if she moved it’d be moving in you
But it wasn’t like a magazine
She was just Plain Jane and her name was Annie

She never looked in the mirror
She never liked what she would see
And even if I tried to tell her
She never listened to a word I’d say
She always wanted what she never had
But never had what she needed so badly
Someone telling her she was fine and that’s not right and it’s why I’m saying

Annie don’t be shy here
Annie don’t just lie there
Looks don’t make the world go ‘round,
But it comes around
And Annie don’t be shy here
Annie please don’t cry here
I always have to stop myself
‘Cause you’re beautiful

I didn’t know if I could make her see
She didn’t need to find her beauty
She didn’t need to find a way to show me
They took her moments of feeling alive
And made them moments of dying inside
She needed someone to scream her name
To take her pain and it’s why I screaming

Annie don’t be shy here
Annie don’t just lie there
Looks don’t make the world go ‘round,
But it comes around
And Annie don’t be shy here
Annie please don’t cry here
I always have to stop myself
‘Cause you’re beautiful

And Annie
You are the one sight my eyes never tire of
It’s like I cannot get enough of you
Annie you are the one song left in my symphony
Like you were made for me

Annie don’t be shy here
Annie don’t just lie there
Looks don’t make the world go ‘round,
But it comes around
And Annie don’t be shy here
Annie please don’t cry here
I always have to stop myself
‘Cause you’re beautiful

And Annie don’t be shy here
Annie don’t just lie there
Looks don’t make the world go ‘round,
But it comes around
And Annie don’t be shy here
Annie please don’t cry here
I always have to stop myself, have to stop myself, have to stop myself
‘Cause you are beautiful
‘Cause you are beautiful
‘Cause you are beautiful

There was a girl named Annie
She had a very pretty face

-Safetysuit

Days are getting more and more hard and I’m getting more and more fucked up. Such a huge amount of homework and stuff to do and soo little time. + can’t make myself just sit and study. why am I such a lazy ass? wanna just go to the seaside, lie on the beach, listen to music and rest-rest-rest and enjoy life. ughhh

I’ve just watched “Water for elephants” and it was brilliant. One of the best movies I’ve ever seen, giving hope and making believe in better life.